Saturday, February 26, 2011

Death to Myself

The Lord Jesus came to set us free from the cares and sin of this world; to allow us to live in His power with Him equally bearing the yoke of things we encounter here.

Many think that once we repent of our sins initially that that's it. It's a done deal, but believe me, God is very specific in His Word that even though we are saved by grace, we are to be "working out" our salvation with fear and trembling Phillipians 2:12. Also, maybe I'm wrong but I do think there is a reward system in heaven. ALL who believe that Jesus is the Christ shall be saved, but if you read the first three chapters of The Revelation, in Christ's letters to the Churches, you will see that there are additional rewards for those who overcome certain things. For additional info about that, you might want to read Lord I Want to be an Overcomer

In my reading of the Word and studying additional materials, it has become obvious to me that repentance is only the first step. Turning and going in the opposite direction is the second step and submission of your will is the third step. How we respond to submission of our will determines what rewards or responsibilities we might expect to take part of in the Kingdom of Heaven.

Think of it sort of like this: Sometimes people sit down in a chair or walk out in the yard and drop dead in their tracks (you know them, the people who are completely healthy; wham, one minute they are here and the next, gone!); these are the people who when they repent, immediately and completely submit their lives to Christ (you know them, the ones who haved lived lives of utter degradation, filled with sin, and know how filled with sin they are and when they meet Christ, they are transformed, utterly and ultimately forever changed).

Then there are those people who get a little sick, and for some reason, they don't get well as expected, and it drags out and on and it becomes literally living life through their sickness; day in and day out, and for some reason they never get well but die a long, slow, slow death. So it is for some Christians. They only give up their lives an inch at a time until God finally gets through to them, by whatever means, that they must die to themselves completely, pick up their cross and follow Him.

Being a true follower of Christ means that we take Him at His word when He tells us to take up "our cross" (didn't He die when He did that?). We are to be dead, buried and resurrected with Christ. Otherwise, we are not worthy of Him. Matthew 10:38

What in the world does dead, buried and resurrected with Christ mean? That statement used to really puzzle me, but God has finally shown me that true followers of Christ die just like he did when we daily, hourly, minute by minute in this life we are given forsake what we want in lieu of what He wants until we are living a life completely surrendered to His leading. We are buried with Him when He covers us with his atoning blood and experience water baptism and then we are resurrected to new life by the power of the holy spirit.

We are by nature a selfish people, and giving up the ghost of our wants and desires is oh, so hard. But there comes a time when the fight is just too much and the body gives up, quits fighting and surrenders to death; to rest. We are called to rest in Him. Sabbath Rest

That's where my walk is right now, giving up the ghost of my will to the leading of His Spirit. Help me, Lord, to trust you implicitly and give up all things to you. The spirit is willing but my flesh is so weak. What else really is there to trust in but you? Myself, really? Ha. Others? Ha. Ha. Only you are worthy of my trust, and you have always delivered me in beneficial ways. Help me to see that your ways are right and true and truly good.

And worst of all, any work that we do that is not inspired by God is sin, and I'm afraid that a lot of my work for God is just that...my work for God instead of His work in me. Jesus said that he did nothing of his own intiative, but that He only did that which the Father wanted him to do and so are we to live. The Lord led me to read this this week at a blog called The Latter Days:

So what is God after? Our very lives. He is looking for us to present our bodies as living sacrifices. What does it mean to have given God your bodies? It means that He has control of your eyes (what you watch), your ears (what you listen to), your mouth (what you say), your feet (where you go), your hands (what you touch), your mind (what you think), your heart (what you desire)...It means that you truly no longer live for yourself; you have been crucified and Christ lives through you.

In order for this to happen, we cannot be driven by what we like or what we think. Our wills must be subjected to His will so that we can receive the inspiration of what He wants to be done in us and allow His Spirit to perform it through us.

Obedience is better than sacrifice.

This blog was exactly what I needed and the Lord provided it to me to give me hope and encouragement because I know He IS working in me and I AM giving it up...what I see, hear, speak, think, touch and desire...to Him. I am going to cut this out and carry it with me. Maybe you will want to do so, too. I really, truly hope you will go on and read the rest of this excellent post about submitting to God, resting in Him and allowing Him to have your body as a living sacrifice. It is the truth and a message that we all need to hear today.

Lord, I want to die to my will and ask that your will be done in my life today and every day. Cover me with your holinesss, godliness and righteousness. Jesus, Lamb of God, Worthy is your name to be praised above ALL names.

Colossians 3:3) For you are dead; your life is hid with Christ in God:
4) When Christ (who is your life) shall appear, then shall you also appear with Him, in glory.

Hide me Lord, in Your holiness
Every sin I now confess
Praise to You, forgiving Lord
Hide me in Your holiness

Hide me, hide me, hide me Lord
Hide me, hide me
Hide me in Your holiness
Hide me in Your holiness


Hide Me in Your Holiness

9)...seeing that you have put off the old man with his deeds,

10)and have put on the new man, which is renewed in knowledge after the image of Him that created him...

I can guarantee this truth: No one can enter the kingdom of God without being born of water and the Spirit. (John 3:5 GW)

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Ruling and Reigning

True followers of Christ are to rule and reign with Him. The Lord brought this to my mind this morning in my quiet time. Actually I was reading in Isaiah 32:1 where it says: Look, a righteous king is coming! And honest princes will rule under him. (NLT), and my spirit was stirred by the fact that those princes are the people who right now live a life of submission to Christ; the ones who "practice" holiness and godliness by studying their leader, Christ, and allowing Him to lead them through this life by the power of His Holy Spirit.

The Lord asked me if I thought was prepared to be a prince.

Honestly, Lord, no, I don't think I am ready. He spoke to me then, saying, you can't even lead your 11 year old son. You resort to bickering, bribing, manipulation and sometimes even shouting. Learn how to rule over your son and you will learn how to rule in my kingdom. For you must know how to rule in love, for the good of all (fairness), without being able to be bribed (honesty), not wavering (steadfast), with calmness and without anger (sure of my decisions) and trusting that the Lord will honor my efforts and the efforts of my son to comply in order to bring us both into complete relationship with Him.

This brought to my mind these verses in the book of Proverbs:

26: 4, 5 Answer not a fool according to his folly, lest thou also be like unto him. Answer a fool according to his folly, lest he be wise in his own conceit.

In looking up Strong's meanings, the word "like" means "to agree with, be or become like, level, resemble". In other words, when you're talking to a foolish person, don't answer him according to his way of thinking, i.e., bickering, bribing, manipulating or shouting, because you become just like him.

And yet, in verse 5, we are told that we are to answer a fool lest he become wise in his own eyes.

What this says to me is that we are to be wise in the way we respond to a fool, not according to his ways, but according to the ways of the Lord.

I have many times told my son how he resembles the foolish that are described in the book of Proverbs. I have actually made him read chapters in the book of Proverbs because so much of it pertains to him. Truly, if you have ever read the book of proverbs, it is so descriptive of each one of us. It tells us in Proverbs 9:10 that the "fear (awe) of the Lord is the 'beginning' of wisdom"!! In my opinion, there are way, way, way, more people walking around out there who have no fear of the Lord than there are people walking around who have a healthy fear of the Lord, so odds are, there aren't very many wise people walking the earth right now.

There is only one who knows all, sees all, understands all and has wisdom over and above any other living creature...the Lord, Jehovah, Yahweh, I AM.

If we are to rule and reign in righteousness, wisdom and love, then we need to soak up as much of his presence and personality as we can get, and the only way that can happen is to read, read, read His Word, study His Word and allow more and more of Him to live within us...more of Him and less of us.

May it be so unto me, Lord, Jesus. In your name I ask this. Amen

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Will You Take Time to Seek Him?

The Bible says that God is constantly seeking to reveal Himself to us. Why is it that men and women think they are so wise that they don't need Him or His wisdom? How many times have our ways failed us? His Word tells us that His ways are higher than ours and His thoughts are not our thoughts. If we would only seek Him.

Think how different the world would be if people would have steered the course and brought up their children in the fear and admonition of the Lord - true fear and admonition of the Lord. Fear and admonition that causes them to seek the Lord's face on all decisions that they have to make. I can see it in my mind's eye. The world would be decidedly different.

I remember back when I was working full time, I just plain never thought about spending time with Him. I put in a lot of hours and when I got home, I had a meal to prepare, preparation for tomorrow's day, the "obligation" of whatever my child might need or have going on and some "me" time, time to relax, or take a hot bath or read a book or listen to music, or play golf, or talk on the phone with a friend, but it never entered my mind to pick up my Bible and read...just for fun or put on praise music and praise Him...just for fun.

On the other hand, when trouble arose, guess where you'd find me? You got it. On me knees or face or some such pose asking Him to help me, crying out for healing or mercy or grace or time,...or whatever.

Why should He do that; help those that never give Him the time of day until they don't have anywhere else to turn? If I were God, I'd say..."suck it up, you got yourself here without paying one minute of time or attention to me, so let's see you get yourself out of this".

But thank God His ways are not my ways and His thoughts are not my thoughts. He alone is good. Every good and perfect gift comes down to us from Him.

I was thinking about this the other day with regard to my son. I have raised Him in church, listening to Christian music, in the midst of prayer meetings in my home, reading the Bible with Him and to Him, trying to not provide Him with everything "the world" says he should have and doing my best to give Him all the things "the world" says he doesn't need. In spite of this, my son still doesn't think he needs to consult God on his day-to-day needs, problems, and direction. And, for some reason, it takes him forever to learn from his mistakes.

Deuteronomy 4:29 says, But if from thence thou shalt seek the LORD thy God, thou shalt find him, if thou seek him with all thy heart and with all thy soul, and Psalm 10:4 tells us why men do not seek him: The wicked, through the pride of his countenance, will not seek after God: God is not in all his thoughts. "Ain't" it the truth? We're so caught up in our busyness and our own wisdom, that we don't even have the time to give Him a thought.

God, though, in His "Godness", knows who will at some point in time begin to seek Him and through His efforts will work in their lives to bring that day to fruition. Ezekial 34:11 For thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, I, even I, will both search my sheep, and seek them out.

This is why it is so good to sit and be still; to be totally quiet. We need to teach our children this habit. How can God, who is seeking us, get through all the noise and busyness that goes on in our lives, if we can't hear the still, small voice calling out to us? Oh, He could do it; yes, He could. He could have a car hit us or a fatal illness, or some other such catastrophe, but is that what we want to have to deal with? Isn't it just much easier to sit and be quiet and listen? Once you are fortunate enough to hear His voice, it becomes easier to do and being in His presence becomes more and more desirable. When you feel the touch of the Master's hand, you will be drawn back again and again to that quiet place and quite frankly, you won't want anyone else to intrude on that space. It is a place of refuge; a haven from the unwanted busyness and cacaphony of the world.

What do we gain by seeking him? Hebrews 11:6 tells us that as we seek Him, our faith grows, and our knowledge of who He is increases. 2 Peter 1:3 says that it is through His divine power that He has given us the knowledge of Him and that He is calling us to share in "His glory and excellence by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire." Chew on that a minute. He seeks us, calls us to live "in Him" and share His glory and excellence by becoming partakers of the divine nature by His power; not ours!

Peter goes on to tell us that if we are diligent in adding godly characteristics to our lives, i.e., virtue, knowledge, self-control, steadfastness, godliness, brotherly affection, and love, we will be kept from being ineffective or unfruitful in living a life devoted to God and that if we "practice" these qualities, "we will never fail"!

Would you like to "never fail"? Do you want a fruitful, effective life that brings peace, joy and the knowledge of God to others?

First, find your secret place. Ask Him to come. Be still. Be quiet. Listen. Then, when you hear that still small voice, ask Him for more knowledge of Him, ask Him to purify your heart, practice self-control in doing the things He prompts you to do or not to do, be steadfast, show up every day, keep inviting, asking, listening, set your mind on heavenly things, and practice love for others and God will have your back. He will never let you fail. You might not get it "all right" but God, in His wisdom, knows the outcome and you will never fail.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Let Us Not Sleep, As Do Others, But Let Us Watch and Be Sober

For the past three years, thanks to God's grace, I have been watching and waiting for his imminent return. The Lord sat me down, after years of aimless running after love, money, and recognition, due to health reasons. I think what made my interest in the end times prophecies catch fire was the election and many things said and done by then candidate, Barack Obama, which caused my eyebrows to lift and say, "Could this man be the anti-christ". My watch has become second nature now due to events occurring world wide. Many say that no man can known the day and hour of Christ's return. I, however, do not agree. If Christ expected the Jews to know when he would show up the first time, do we think He would not expect the Church (His Body) to know when He would return the second time? (I'm not talking about the rapture of the Church.)

I am convinced, due to the diligent efforts of others, that we are indeed living in the last days. I am listing videos and articles below that I believe are very convincing. Please watch them so you cannot say you were never warned.

I would like to tell you, too, that being a Christian, in other words a follower of Christ, means born again (or born over) in spirit and it entails a complete submission of your will to that of Christ. Living your life as He directs you to live it. It is not a quick prayer of I'm sorry I did that God. It is a daily examination of your life being lived out as He calls the play by play. It is not easy, but it is oh so worth it. I have seen his hand at work in my life so many times (in spite of myself) and having his presence in my life is something to watch as He works in me and I learn and grow. I pray that all who come here to read this will seek Him. If you seek Him with a sincere heart, He is faithful to show Himself to you.

The first video is a presentation by Pastor Mark Biltz, a Messianic Jew who has discovered astonishing signs from the NASA web site about signs in the heavens that are consistent with the Bible's prophecies in Revelation which will occur in 2014-2015.

Signs in the Heavens

This video explains why the Body of Christ will/should know when His return to rule and reign is...not the rapture.

Thief in the Night

A document which acts as the "witness" or confirmation of Pastor Biltz's tetrad.

For God's Spirit Shall Not Always Strive with Man...Yet his days shall be for a hundred and twenty years.


More Info


And Yet More Info

Two additional resources which confirm Pastor Biltz's information:

Daniels' Timeline

The Final 7 Years Are Here Now

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

A Work in Progress

Isn't it funny how we always expect God to show up in some big, miraculous, showy way? In reality, He sneaks up on us and catches us unawares and makes us smile a secret, knowing smile usually only to ourselves, but sometimes, if we're blessed, we get to experience it with someone else. It happened to me again today. I began my quiet time asking the Lord to come visit with me, make His presence known to me; expecting some major revelation.

As I sat praying to the Lord, I became aware that as I prayed for something, I truly had faith that He would give it to me, and I thanked Him for it. I blogged recently about the motive behind our prayers, and how we have not because we ask for the wrong reasons, i.e., because we usually ask to satisfy our flesh or because we want to own or possess something (sins of the flesh and sins of the eye (coveting)).

The holy spirit showed me right there, right then that I AM growing in Him because I was praying to love what he loves, hate what he hates, cry for things He cries about, rejoice about things he rejoices about and after each item, I would say, "thank you, Lord; I know you will do it" and He opened my eyes to these scriptures and how they are related.

Phillipians 4:6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

James 4:3 Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume [it] upon your lusts.

James 1:6 But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.



And the presence of the Lord shown round about me, and I knew that He was in the room talking to me. Letting me know that He is working in me, changing me; maybe not monumentally, but little by little, piece by piece, bad habit by bad habit, idol by idol He is forming me into the person He wants me to be. HE IS THE POTTER; i am the clay has never seemed more real to me than it does right now. If you've ever had this happen to you, you know what I'm talking about. If not, it's awfully hard to explain; but it's like a puzzle being put together. It comes together before your eyes and understanding washes over and you say, "Eureka"! Scriptures that had for some reason puzzled you in some ways become clear and point to other scriptures and you see that they are inter-related. It is SO cool!

Lord, I am fearfully and wonderfully made in your image. Thank you for that. Through the works of those who came before me, Lord, I was born to sin. I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I have done. Against you I have sinned. Please forgive me. Thank you for choosing me to be your daughter. Help me to be a proper daughter...listening to your voice of wisdom, following your directions as one who has seen it all, and knows all, obeying your requests to do the things you need or want me to do; and showing you how much I love and respect you for the way you care about me and everything that affects me. My heartfelt plea today, Father, is that you will continue to mold me after YOUR will; not mine. Forgive me in advance for the days I don't want to surrender to your greater knowledge, experience and wisdom. Thank you for not giving up on me. By your presence here with me today, I have a greater understanding of the fact that I am a work in progress. ...I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I have committed unto Him against that day (2 Timothy 1:12). All praise and glory and honor to you, my precious Lord, Jesus! I ask and pray in your name and I thank you for hearing my prayer and answering it! Amen

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
Thou art the Potter, I am the clay.
Mold me and make me after Thy will,
While I am waiting, yielded and still.

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
Search me and try me, Master, today!
Whiter than snow, Lord, wash me just now,
As in Thy presence humbly I bow.

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
Wounded and weary, help me, I pray!
Power, all power, surely is Thine!
Touch me and heal me, Savior divine.

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
Hold o’er my being absolute sway!
Fill with Thy Spirit till all shall see
Christ only, always, living in me.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Mission Trips and Superbowls

For some reason two things keep crossing in my mind today: the mission trip I just returned from with 29 third through fifth graders from my church and the super bowl. Odd, isn't it? I keep seeing how excited and jubilant probably 2/3 of the children got every time someone brought up the super bowl, but how they failed to show the same excitement and jubilance when we talked about God, Jesus and how our purpose in taking the trip was to be the hands and feet of Jesus here on earth now that He has taken His appointed place at God's right hand.

I stood up during out pizza fest on Saturday night and (probably made a down right fool of myself) enthusiastically told the kids how I would love to see them as fired up for Jesus as they were about the super bowl. As a matter of fact, I would love to see the whole Body of Christ as excited about their savior as they are about the super bowl.

What is the super bowl anyway? Three to four hours of men running up and down a field trying to get a ball across a line; and in so doing, using any and all methods to get it done, i.e., throwing, tackling, hitting, tripping, pushing, and pulling. Of course, they are penalized if they break the rules or do anything "illegal". Part of the so-called fun is to see who can hit the hardest, run the fastest, and throw or kick the fartherest.

Look, I can enjoy a football game (or for that matter, any sport or game) just as much as anyone else, but the extent and nature of the interest portrayed for the "super bowl" is, to me, quite disillusioning. It is disheartening to see how much and thoroughly people love the pursuit of "winning a game" and "their team" and putting extensive energy into making sure that their time is open so they can watch the game or listen to it; and that every chance they get they let most people they come in contact with know who "their team" is or who they are rooting for. However, when it comes to Jesus, their relationship with Him, their faith in Him and their willingness to go to any lengths to live a life like He did, they show very little imagination, energy or even life, joy or happiness about it.

Folks, we are passing this on to our children - BIG TIME! We are not setting a good enough example for our children. There are no ifs, ands or buts involved. As Christians, as parents, our enthusiasm for Christ will directly impact not only our children and their children, but EVERYONE we come in to contact with. If we've truly been touched by the hand of God, how can we help but share that excitement, confidence, happiness, and peace that it brings? A real, living, breathing relationship with Christ can be seen, heard and felt. If a person is walking with Christ, the presence of Christ reaches out and touches others; it can't be helped, not if you're submitting to Him.

I'm relatively new to the mission field, so I'm not sure what to expect in all situations. So I asked the Lord, prior to leaving, that He would direct me to the people He wanted me to talk with, that He would speak through me, and that people would feel as though they had been in His presence after being around me. I don't know if that happened or not, but I continue to pray that it did and that someone's life (that I prayed with) might be turned just a little towards the Kingdom of God and all that offers today.

Think about it a few minutes; do we really want our children to grow up to be uninspired about faith? Faith in the old testament began at birth, by way of the child's parents. Now I realize that even by going on this mission trip these children and their parents are far and away advanced beyond the norm, and I them and God for this. What I am lamenting here is that even in the Christian community, parents and children tend to show more enthusiasm for a sporting event than they do about Jesus and our "hope of glory"! One of my questions being: "Does the church even teach about our "glorious hope" anymore? This life is not our real life. It's a training ground for God's people. I just saw on facebook where the schools in some towns in Wisconsin are closed today as a result of the game, and yet, we're not even allowed to discuss Jesus, faith and religion at school.

I highly recommend this blog written by my friend, Art about the super bowl, the refusal of Fox News to run the John 3:16 ad and how it all relates to idolatry.

I'm not throwing the proverbial first stone, I am just shouting, "wake up"! It was only recently that God showed me what I was leaving behind to my children and future descendants.

The Bible speaks about the blessings and ills that are imparted to our children and their children because of our faith or lack thereof:

Psalm 103:17 Mercy

Exodus 34:7 Mercy and Iniquity to the 3rd and 4th Generations

I remember this poem from my childhood and now, after all these years, I can finally see its wisdom.

Children Learn What They Live
By Dorothy Law Nolte, Ph.D.

If children live with criticism, they learn to condemn.
If children live with hostility, they learn to fight.
If children live with fear, they learn to be apprehensive.
If children live with pity, they learn to feel sorry for themselves.
If children live with ridicule, they learn to feel shy.
If children live with jealousy, they learn to feel envy.
If children live with shame, they learn to feel guilty.
If children live with encouragement, they learn confidence.
If children live with tolerance, they learn patience.
If children live with praise, they learn appreciation.
If children live with acceptance, they learn to love.
If children live with approval, they learn to like themselves.
If children live with recognition, they learn it is good to have a goal.
If children live with sharing, they learn generosity.
If children live with honesty, they learn truthfulness.
If children live with fairness, they learn justice.
If children live with kindness and consideration, they learn respect...



The only thing that should be added to it would be that a child who is taught that God is AWESOME, INCREDIBLE, DEPENDABLE, FAITHFUL, LOVING, KIND, JUST, ALL KNOWING, "ALL GOING", and UNBEATABLE(!!!) will be more inclined to live a life expecting God to be all those things (and more!) and live a life of JOYFUL EXPECTANCY when it comes to God. Let's give our children that gift. It is one of the commitments I am making to God today.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Press On

The truly great things in life that Christ gives to you come with a moment of praise; heartfelt praise. The kind where you have completely emptied yourself of yourself; realized your poorness of spirit, character and sinful past and gloried in the fact that Christ embodies all that is praiseworthy, good, and sinless.

I reached that place this morning on my treadmill. I reached down deep and praised God that He was giving me glimpses of His glory, holiness, mercifulness and His unfailing love. There have been days when I felt I was a sham; a useless hypocrit in the world of today's spirit-starved Christians. But something inside of me said press on; don't believe that. That is a lie from the pit of hell. So I would press on saying, "Lord, I believe; help my unbelief".

There have been days when I have layed my head down and cried for God to fill me with His holy spirit because I felt so dehydrated from the lack of His water of life only to rise and think that He did not fill me because I was not worthy. But again, I would think you cannot believe that, Kim. You have been born from above, regenerated, and filled with His Spirit and again I would press on.

There have been days when I went to prayer and offered uninspired praise, thanksgiving and been unwilling to ask for anything because of my lack of inspiration. And yet, I would pick up His Word to me and read words like....God did not come in to the world to condemn the world but that through Him, the whole world would be saved and if you believe in your heart that Jesus is the Son of God and confess such belief with your mouth, He is faithful to forgive our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (paraphrased) and realize that it isn't what I do or who I am, but who He is and what He has done, and I would press on.

Thank God for days like today when He fills my mouth with praise for Him, when it flows out of me like a river and then my eyes open and I see where He has lead me...to that place outside of myself and in Him where I want what He wants, love what He loves, cry for what He cries for, hate what he hates and longs to be with Him in His secret place.

When I began this blog, I (unbelievably) thought I had some wisdom to share, some joy, some knowledge, something to give to someone out there in the cyber world, but as I have written the Lord has shown me that when I let Him say what He wants to say, the words flow and come together and usually there will be at least one comment. When Kim talks, no one listens. When the Lord speaks, all hear. The question is whether or not they will heed what they hear. God's sick and tired of us thinking we have something to offer Him. I have nothing. I am nothing. I am a dried up piece of grass flying in the wind toward a barn fire if I don't have Him.

I only want Him, to do His will, to love the moments He gives me. Not the things of this world that will pass away. So savor the moment today when you know that God has gifted you with something special. It may be holding your child on your lap and smelling the sweet fragrance of their just-washed hair. It may be an excellent meal that He told you to fix and how to prepare and then you eat every bite like it was heaven-made just for you. Or it may be that spasm of weeping that you go through when you realize that you really are helpless in the stream of life that moves so quickly around you without the hand of the one who put the stream in place. But He is there in you, around you and everyone and everything else and when you realize who HE is, you won't be able to treat everyone and everything indifferently. You will open your mouth to let out the praise that He has given you and you will savor it. True life sent from the Father of above is to be savored; even the painful parts of life. As His word says in Psalm 30:5

For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.